lazier!

1.00 a.m.
nd I still sitting here confusing what i hve to do first. gyahaha. i have many assignment actually, but laziness is God of any destructor ever!



am i look like lazier above?

or, this cute one, :D



LOL.

welcome back to my world

Rain.
Pizza.
Mochachino float.
Toshiba satellite.
Alone.
PERFECTO!


It's really the world that i used to be.
Without any burden of thought and everythin damn.
Enjoying my loneliness by doing ALL i wanna do, without worrying about others feelin.
Being alone is not too bad i think. It isn't kinda individualistic, just wanna take time to enjoy life by my self.
Im not a feminist, nor a nun, who think that being all alone along their life is such a sainthood. No. I just a 19 years old girl who wanna make friends with many ppl, taste every cuisine in the world (whether it's nutritious one or not), breathe fresh air the middle of my bawdy town, stay up all over night for finishing assignment, come back home when business out there have done well; without any destruction or intervention from others. 

Its more than just enjoying life, it's all about finding identity.

Nd this is the right time to get it all.
I really know what i wanna be and what i have to be. 
Dreaming and finish it one by one.
I believe that someday i'll find someone better nd reach our dream together. 
Saviour life as much!

KFC Java

meet mr yayak nd famz, haha -______-

nd share pizza with his daughter, @@

selamat hujan!

selamat hujan .. :)

di kosan si mardhita,
dengerin mp3 saat hujan dateng adalah waktu paling menyebalkan, karena anda mendadak akan menjadi seorang melow,
ini artis yang ga bosen2nya nyanyi di mp3 hape ku akhir2 ini..



 
"Well, when you go 
Don't ever think I'll make you turn to stay  
And maybe when you get back I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe  
You're still a good-for-nothing I don't know  
So take your gloves and get out  
Better get out while you can
When you go would you even turn to say "I don't love you like I did yesterday"?
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading  
So sick and tired of all the needless beating  
But baby when they knock you down and out  
It's where you oughta stay
Well after all the blood that you still owe  
Another dollar's just another blow  
So fix your eyes and get up  
Better get up while you can, whoa whoa
When you go would you even turn to say "I don't love you like I did yesterday"?
Well come on, come on!
When you go would you have the guts to say "I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"?
I don't love you like I loved you yesterday I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"
(MCR-i dont love you)


huaaaaaaa..... TT

first of december

holaaa.

i've promised you to share what makes me write in this media.

its kinda melancholia actually. :D

well now i just wanna share you about my past: an unpleasant memories.

make a relationship means that you'll reponsible to every risk ahead. nd i think, i haven't been ready for thus.

im full of regrets about what i did. All the things that he did for me nd all our sweet memories together. we broke up this early december, it wasn't either his mistake or mine but the circumstance. Our relationship didn't last long enough for me to realise how good he actually is nd how much i loved him. i miss him a lot (nd he does too maybe).

I dont know, is it already late for me to make it up to him. loved him right is all that i wanted, but i dont even know how to start.

unfortunately, we've dicided to have our own world. walk in our own way. My days weren't right a few days back, but lately i realise that being with him at that time wasn't the girl i wanted to be. i mean that i do thank to him, for his kindness, for his love, for everything he gave, but that wasn't the right time. yup, its all about time.

five years later seems so far for me. i dont know, will he remember all the things he said that evening (the day i said goodbye), but i will never forget.

it doesn't mean that i want him back, im just waiting for that time..

welcome to my blog! :)

yeah. finally. after waiting for about two years, akhirnya niat buat nulis di blog terlaksana juga. 
about me.. emm, im not a professinal writer, nor an idealist one. hobi nulis iya.
berawal dari tugas nulis puisi pas sd, ttg cinta2an! -_______- #dewasa sebelum waktunya..
kalo diinget2, itu puisi konyol dan bego bgt, but, tanpa itu aku g bakal tau kalo nulis ternyata pekerjaan yang sangat menyenangkan.
well, hobi satu ini berlanjut pas smp, masuk ekskul puisi dan debat siswa not too bad jg..
selalu punya namanya buku agenda yang ampe sekarang masi kesimpen dengan tidak baik di kamar, yah, setidaknya belajar menghargai karya sendiri dulu lah, :D
anywei, sejak kuliah i work for a campus magazine, Dimensi!
di lpm satu ini tulisan2 mayan agak bermanfaat nd lebih terarah. kalo sebelumnya agenda (baca: diary TT) berisi masalah cinta2an, sahabat2an, ibu2an, bapak2an, dan apa2an melow lainnya, Dimensi kasih job buat nulis tentang sosial kemasyarakatan, Thx god to met me w/ them..
cerita tentang kenapa aku nulis disini... berawal dari patah hati... wkwkwkwkwk (kumur2.. TT)
bedewe, one of my besties ngajak kota2 malem ini, nd i dont wanna miss this, so, see ya on my next post.. :)